Staying in the moment

About seven years ago I was recovering from a second episode of what was later diagnosed as Relapsing Remitting Multiple Sclerosis. I had become so unwell and weak that I had limited mobility and would tire after five minutes on my feet. It felt as though I had been run over by a bus. It had even become a struggle to get across the street to collect my son from the nearby primary school and I couldn’t imagine ever riding a bike again. Before this point I took it for granted that my strong legs could take me anywhere. I felt invincible and was even jogging before I got ill. It took me a long time to regain strength and confidence after this. When I did finally begin to build up my capacity and walk more I relished the moments and felt more thankful than ever. But MS has also been compared to an ‘unwelcome visitor’ who can come knocking and barge in at any time. While this can feel uneasy and provoke anxiety, I’ve also thought that the last thing I would want to do is stop myself from getting out there, smelling the flowers in bloom, breathing fresh air and feeling the wind on my face. It’s the pleasures of being in the moment of ‘the walk’ (countryside or other) that I’ve embraced. It helps take me out of the space of worry about the past or the future.

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One comment on “Staying in the moment

  1. Shawn Sobers

    Thank you for this heartfelt blog post. You are so right that the power of walking cannot be underestimated, especially during and after an illness. Something we do everyday as seldom think about, is deep with therapeutic and holistically healing qualities. Growing up we think that learning to drive is a first sign of independence. It is so long since we learnt to walk that we have forgotten that is indeed are first steps and independence. During and after an illness, this confidence, and those steps, sometimes have to be revisited to gain mobility and a sense of what it is to be an individual. We wish you all good health, keep on smelling those flowers! ;-)

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